"Okay" Will Be Our "Always"
May 12, 2014
Category: Student Blogs
They say time flies when you're having fun...that couldn't be truer. It is already the end of another school year. Final exams are being taken and everyone is split up into two groups: staying or leaving. The reality that lies within that sentence leaves one feeling very sad, but it should also leave one feeling hopeful. The exciting life that is beyond our safe college campus.
What adventures await us just after we take a step off campus? What adventures await us stepping back onto campus after a few months away? The possibilities are endless! This is my last blog post for Catawba as I am one of the people who are going on a new adventure beyond Catawba. This place has been a second home to me. From the first day moving in to my last day moving out, there are so many memories that flow through me.
The first time I walked into Keppel Auditorium and witnessed the magnificence that was Keppel Stage. The first time I auditioned in front of so many peers I had still yet to meet and instead of feeling nervous to the point of uncontrollable shaking, I felt an abundance of love and comfort from people I barely knew. The first time I stepped out from behind the set of Charlotte's Web, portraying a role that only few are given the privilege to portray. The first time I fell to my knees with uncontrollable joy when I read I would be playing a dream role that I have always wished for as Audrey in Little Shop of Horrors.
The list goes on. The one list that still continues and is never ending is the list of people who have inspired me and made me a better person. The overwhelming joy that has surrounded me every time I see them achieve greatness in any aspect, academics or theatre, leads me to believe that I have found lifelong friends just like everyone said I would. Just recently, I read an inspiring and heart warming book called The Fault In Our Stars by John Green. It's a story about a girl named Hazel and a boy named Augustus who embark on a journey together, even though they both are battling cancer, so who knows how long their journey will be. They rely on each other to try and live a "normal life" as their parents keep saying. As described on the back of this book "Insightful, bold, irreverent, and raw, The Fault in Our Stars brilliantly explores the funny, thrilling, an tragic business of being alive and in love." I highly recommend this book to everyone; it's amazing (*fair warning: have tissues).
After reading this book I was left speechless. I was in my room thinking about my existence, thinking about what mark I would make on society. Have I already left a mark? I'm not suffering from an illness of any kind, I'm just going someplace new, but I still kept thinking about the life I've lived so far and if I have placed my mark on the world. I then looked at my life here at Catawba. I have done everything a college student should do and more. I have placed myself backstage to help build a show and I have had the privilege to place myself on stage to create a world for an audience to escape into with me, and maybe...just maybe...make them leave inspired to go make their mark somewhere. I will miss this school and the people more than words can possibly express, but of course this isn't a dramatic goodbye or a sappy way to tell people I'll never see again how I feel because I will see them again. They have made their mark on my life. I have been inspired to go off and live the wonderful life I have because the beauty of it all is I wake up every morning. I am breathing, I can see the flowers blooming and I can say I love you to so many people. It's simple things just like that to make me get up and do nothing but smile.
So I leave this blog post with this quote for so many people I love here at this school from this book, "You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I'm grateful." Of course I have said that I'm going to come back and visit so much, but the difference with this statement is I will actually come back. It's not goodbye and never will be, okay? "'Okay' will be our 'Always'". Thank you for the memories everyone. You have truly left your mark.